There are lots of things I wonder about. Lots of “why’s” and “what if’s.” There are two books on the subject which I highly recommend. One that I’ve read a couple of times in the past is: I Was Just Wondering by Philip Yancey.
Here are some questions Mr. Yancey poses. Not to get answers. Just to help us wonder, too. “Why are there so many kinds of animals? Couldn’t the world get along with, say 300,000 species of beetles instead of 500,000?” Or “Why is it that the most beautiful animals on earth are hidden away from all humans except those wearing elaborate SCUBA equipment?
Presently I’m reading a book by Max Lucado called Cast of Characters. It’s his wonderings about how and why God used ordinary people, warts and all, to accomplish His holy purposes. The characters include Abigail, Job, Esther, Nicodemus, Lazarus and many more.
Haven’t you ever wondered about Joseph, chosen to raise God’s Son? To love and protect him, even when it meant becoming a refugee in Egypt? What was he thinking when he watched foreign emissaries bow down and worship the child entrusted to him? What was it like to teach Jesus to walk or work in his carpenter shop?
And doesn’t it seem strange that Jesus, early in His ministry, chose the disciples that He did? I mean fishermen, zealots, and a tax collector. Yes, Matthew was a tax collector, despised by most Jews as a traitor cooperating with Romans. Jesus knew that Judas would betray him. So why was he among the chosen?
Max Lucado says, “The white space between Bible verses is fertile soil for questions. One can hardly read Scripture without whispering, ‘I wonder…’ “
So what’s the point I’m trying to make with all of this wondering? It is that we, like the folks in the Bible, are chosen by the Lord as His representatives, weaknesses, faults, shortcomings, and all. We wonder why and how. But “ours is not to question why; ours is but to do or die,” as the saying goes. Whatever is in our past, God is willing to forgive. Not ignore or overlook. But forgive through the sacrifice and grace of Jesus. He alone can make us clean and holy, able to be used in ways we never would have dreamed.
Are you a willing tool in the Master’s hand? I was just wondering.